The Edge Of God


The Edge Of God

From floating within

cast out upon a sea

of commotion and hardness

connection severed

doubt born of ignorance

emptiness of hoped for faith


Smiles and attendance

misunderstanding and wonder

if anyone knows me

if anyone cares

still time and space

play their receiving and parting game

joy, need and want

spin around love

and who knows which direction

love is now pointing me?


It is all about love

all about a worship of connection

something complete beyond distance

past denial, freedom and forgetfulness

a belonging passionate and personal

teeming universal and internal

a Place too grand to encompass

too Bright too be seen.


Here God is as a constant

and as a Presence beyond normal cognition

it is at The Edge

differentiation, parts of The Whole

I can carry to my heart

one by one while never comprehending

The Sum of it All.

God is always here

hidden if I refuse to see

mere belief if I refuse to know

how The Edge Of God requires acceptance

to know connection and revelation

as when eyes find that moment

when they see both ways

when I look at you and you at me

suddenly we see something never-ending

eternity reaches out in a momentary sight

this is how The Edge Of God feels

when we see into forever

an unbounded Love

known by being love

by knowing empiric contact

with God wherever and whenever

with whatever and whomever I chose

a choice to walk The Edge of experience

becoming what is shown

immersed in what is known.





A Partition In One

A Partition In One


One earth under our feet

One air between us meet

One water in each vein

One heart in every pain


One Reality

One Love

One place to be true

One existence

One Truth

One time to be you


Journeys of One

Journeys of One


One Creation

One Existence

One Setting of you


One earth is here

One breath of air

One Place to be true

One definition ensues

One view in ones eyes

One heart to conceive

One Union divided

Ones dreams forgotten

One destiny reprieve

One Holiness becomes

One sojourners soul

One purpose revealed

One answer in many

One heart for receiving

One Love once concealed

High Above The Pepper Tree

High Above The Pepper Tree


Your words moistened becoming rain

standing for an instant on dry ground

diving under rock without a sound


Silence echoed its personal bane

canyons changed their orientation

moments flowing without direction


Looking up but seeing nothing to chain

moments fell off high cliffs of memory

forgetful river meandering towards sea


Worries, blight brought seasons of pain

earth’s clouds passed over sun or moon

hearts are broken as always too soon


Green came shimmering wild and sane

we wandered in time where now is free

traveling high blue above a pepper tree



For Love and not War

-The Awe, Wonder and Majesty of Being. A Visual and Thought Journey through the Universe…

One of The Moody Blues, Mike Pinder, Among The Stars. Meditation and song.

We Cannot Admit It

We Cannot Admit It

A Universe of Love?

I don’t think so..

All the struggle




Exploitation and Opportunism

Unconditional Love?

A Dream

A Joke

A Wish upon a too distant Star…


Or a wish beyond a choice;

a free for all context

a battle for existence

or is it how Existence is?

Where does the value of the self

transcend the value of the Whole

The Great One Thing?

I am but a grain of sand

in a vast universe of Being

a speck of dust

on a speck of dust

perhaps microscopic

certainly off many radars

doesn’t matter…

I Am

and I have been

that is the difference

between nothingness

and Everything…


Unconditional Love


having been at all

in any aspect

changes Everything

shares in

what Everything Is

and the unadmitted Secret;

No matter the situation

I can chose to love

irregardless of condition

a courage to admit It

there is then union

with Unconditional Love


Instead of not;

the condition




(photo benafia)

This is not a post that can be called any particular religions providence. The metaphysical encounter that changed my life view, described later in this post, did not carry a particular religions iconography or impression. (FYI—The Muslim Abrahamic religion does describe that encounters with an angel occur in this light like manner. It seems angels have become “personalized” into more than metaphorical form over time in some other Abrahamic traditions.)



[This is an edited and expanded text of a comment I left at another blog.

My comment involved the question of recognizing spiritual messages or signs in our lives. I refer to an incident that happened to me in the late 1970’s, as well as “common” everyday incidences when we generate grace towards one another by compassion/empathy/connection. A day after updating this post, I came across the Biography Channel interview with a woman describing an event close to mine.  She was talking with friend at the time after a near accident, about the light she was in, yet that friend could not see what she was seeing.}


You can jump to the next photo below if you want to, to hear my description on when the Light actually comes knocking on ones own door.  I will create a new post connecting to this one since literally hundreds of people have checked into this one.  Hopefully it will be brief and more introspective regarding the shocking event that happened to me from what I now think was 10 to 30 seconds or so.  I’ll put that right here:

Supernatural Encounter While Walking Home At Night



Hard spiritual merit work, to me, is the direction to turn the other cheek, or to love your enemy. Most often these days, that is considered being weak, rather than requiring the strength of conviction in higher cause that not retaliating can define. It is a whole different level of being to act from consistent consciousness toward inclusion, than reaction of like kind to some offense to oneself. The latter requires the problem posed by another to become ones own reason to behave in like consciousness into dysfunction, effectively negating higher consciousness.

There is some merit to the idea of not resisting evil.

I have come to see this ancient understanding, to resist not evil, not as a passive act that effectively acts to encourage evil, but rather, to judge evil as not belonging to those who seem to represent it. It is a very hard lesson, not “getting even” or making sure that what I believe is good wins out at any cost. Yet I do spend a bit of my time pointing out where things are amiss. One does need to know where to illuminate, and when I can be taken in by darkness.

The point I make on evil, comes from personal experience. As a youth, whatever sense of failure I had, and anger about my acceptance of it, along with my own disappointment with my life. This in some ways, was evil invited in by my view of Life being not for me, or on my side. I had accommodated to a lesser self, and I certainly projected that decision into the world for others to see. Instead of being what I could or might have been, I was weighed down with my negative assumptions of life. Unchecked, these can evolve into producing negative acts. Acting out ones spiritual state, or in some respects, the lack of it, in some respects is unavoidable; all things cause reactions.

I experienced what seemed like non-judgement in certain others, reactions that did not reinforce my negativity when I judged myself as failing. Instead, I was shown a higher way to be, one that implied forgiveness, in that, some who could have judged me however wrong, did not. I did not resist that negative me. These individuals were as lights of Spirit. In this state of grace we can offer one another, a moment comes to become more wholesome, more whole. I could set the weight free, for others seem not to see it. These enlightened others (regular folks) held a door of inclusion open to me, as if to say. You. The real you. The one inside we know. We see you, we need you because you are here. You do belong to what is full and open. Lets go forward from here.

What that did, was allow me to dissolve what was essentially evil I had given quarters to, created. A negative self definition fell away to a positive creative one. My own self judgement held over my own head was illuminated. I could freely forgive myself and see how ill will is generated and perpetuated. Now, in the world, and even in my own life, weakness can appear. There is always a challenge to say yes to Life and Love, instead of becoming lost as to what is most worthy in life by what seems missing.

This has remained a spiritual lesson that I cannot turn my back on, no matter how horrible we humans can be. No matter what mistakes or forgetfulness I discover inside. What any one may be waiting on, is that inner light shown first through an others unconditional acceptance; unconditional Love. We have in our power the ability to generate grace from our own spiritual victories.

——-An Event of Uncommon Grace——–

Image Credit:

NASA, ESA, and the Hubble Heritage Team (STScI/AURA)

{ I put this image up to depict a quality of the event I describe below.  How it seemed before I recognized I was also inside the light, it seeming to interpret reality for me.

If you have ever seen the movie, Phenomenon, with John Travolta, when that first flash occurs to him in the night sky, when seeing it on the big screen I thought; “Wow. Other people know what can happen.”. His “flash” experience was a bit like what I saw in initial impact value. But I think what I saw is more like this Hubble photo of Galaxy M87, yet brighter, occurring in a stretched out instant. The light came toward me as I just looked up, then around me.

Then I saw the world around me through this light for several seconds, in a whole new way of seeing, while inside the presence of what felt like total knowing and absolute Love. Total Unconditional Love. This happened over approx 10-20 seconds, but I am unsure how it stopped, or how long the moment really was, being I was in a kind of stunned revelation. It took a few days before I could feel I was me enough in my body, to feel my knees as connecting me to my feet on the earth.

I had seemed to be walking on some kind of air, almost weightless. It left me with a surety that; THIS IS THE WAY IT , EVERYTHING, ACTUALLY IS. ALL FROM LOVE. A PHENOMENAL GIFT OF BEING.  IT DOESN’T MATTER AT ALL IF I LIKE OR APPROVE OF WHAT I SEE OR HOW OTHERS SEEM.  NOT IN THIS SUM OF ALL THINGS. EVERYTHING IS MADE FROM LOVE. I was overjoyed to know how wrong I was about Life in so many ways, as this event unfolded.

It was quite unusual to seem to be given information that rendered Life’s personalized trials and tribulations as a kind of epiphenomenon to full, or Whole Life. How and why had this happened this one time to me? I have never told this much of the event to anyone. I had grown up like most in assumed notions of what reality is, and what does and does not seem to happen.
When you think about it; many earlier cultures believed in magic or magical like happenings. When vision quest were portrayed in movies, I was ambivalent about the imagery. Perhaps native peoples just really believed these things happened, but they did not in the real world. Not really. My rational world programming said that magic does not actually happen, not this metaphysical impositions on our consistent world order. With my experience of this event, and many other types of telepathic ones, I am quite sure the western world view has serious flaws, and or is incomplete.

I like the idea of new, or yet to be realized dimensions to reality, yet wondered where the boundaries of fantasy and reality could interact in the physical world. Dreams can seem real, yet upon waking one is normally sure it was all imagined. But I cannot honestly say what is allowed or not allowed in our normal physics based world view. In what dimension are thoughts actually being manifest in for instance? They are not in one that does not exist, obviously. An electrochemical dimension? Might be a dimension like a radio receiver, yet the sound is not actually created only by the radio. A radio programmer and an emitter are involved somewhere other than in the radio.

The odds of the relatively new scientific rational (theory) world view being complete about all causality, seems easily questionable. I grew up fancying the scientific view was the most trustworthy, and likely, the only truest one. These events changed my mind, from being a sceptic on the metaphysical, to a believer that something very real is involved in some of it.}
When anyone describes what they feel is an explicitly spiritual experience, we are left with our own subjective consideration of mental states; what is claimed to be the evidence, how does the conclusion drawn by another compare to how we ourselves would define such an experience; what do we consider our own spiritual reality and how does another’s claim fit into that etc. By the very nature of the spiritual perception being not even acknowledged by some, faith and trust are what we are left with.

I was given a transcendental experience of absolute Love at one of my worst moments, just when I thought life was in danger and possibly over. I had not noticed my mother having or mentioning such an experience when she died when I was 11, nor at my fathers suicide when I was 15. Nor any of us under stress at these times. Near death experience recorded by some, seems to have some similarity of sensation. I did not have a “tunnel” experience. I actually seemed to lift up out of my body a few feet or so, surveying my surroundings from up in light, not aware of where I was physically, although seeming to see with a much greater consciousness in my sight. I do not consider my encounter with what seemed Divine, as any given for happening to be in a survival crisis. Why I had this and perhaps others did or do not is not known to me. It just happened, and was of an otherworldly reality presentation.

I was agnostic at the time, not into spiritual perception or looking for a sign*. I was literally grabbed out of my life and shown what the “real” truth of Being was, while walking on the street at night into a seemingly dangerous situation. I was left elated (for days) and wondering, since there was no other instruction, what I was to do with what was shown me, being that it was such a revelation.—-So, anger and all that is wrong with the world is an illusion. I was thrilled to know, to see the feeling sense of the reality of it for a moment, but how do I spread that news? And you know this how? Oh. Nice talking to you, but I have to get going. I have a real life to catch.

That event ended up being the final assurance I, or I imagine anyone, would ever required to “see the light”. Light meaning a manifestation of higher truth of universal union. I feel very fortunate to be given such a wake up call. Hopefully, many may not need such a direct prodding. I have not had nor required that kind of vision again, but it remains a high standard to hold my experience to. I am so not perfect to my hopes and dreams nor the nature of Being I was introduced to. It has been a particular comfort to have seen another dimension of Life, and this immense power we all belong to. It has let me with a kind of mission in life.

I believe we have access to elements of this illuminated state at any time we come to It. Any pure love is likely connected to this Divinity experience. Many religions, and prayer or meditative states may come into this gift in profound ways, as can other bonding transcendent relationships. The connection to something greater than we can specifically comprehend as real, can humble one to what I think I know is going on around me.

If this transcendent metaphysical event has not happened to any of you, it did once to me, right out of the blue (or night black). The experience also left me with no fear of death, for we are always a part of all encompassing Love. Love is surrounding even the worst of us, and when you have failed you. When we are seemingly all alone and forgotten, we are still Loved. It is The Intention.

As time went by, I became less aware of the insight I was given, allowing my judgements of life to create problematic kinds of worldly observation. It seems to me to be important to have some continuous self reminder as to the Loving Wonder of Life. We have no guarantee as sentient beings, that we cannot get lost, or become misplaced in our awareness of life. Situations are a challenge, yet as in many things, the more one practices getting some thing right, usually the better we get. Life is not a free and passive ride. It is the chance to experience everything of ones life, when in fact, we may have had nothing; not a life, and not a universe. Existence is the most profound gift of Love, or if you would; God. Our relative freedom, the chance to feel love, along with all the ways it can be apparently removed from perception, this Great Thing always ready to be tapped into, left up to our choices. Amazing.

As it is, Love is an omniscient influence, yet its power seems real only to hearts and minds who recognize what they really are. Evil, as real and horrible as it appears, is a kind of illusion we can chose to see another reality over, but I must act in Love’s Command, not in anger’s or hate’s, or I risk the greatest loss of all; a conscious union with The Divine.

We hold the whole world in our hands and hearts.


*—–Signs along the way.

It is valuable, if you are looking for signs of Divine guidance, to expect to see one daily for as long as required. I have found this something—sign to appear evident. Others have suggested this expectation will likely produce results for someone.  It raises the personal note; that how many signs might always be present but we do not “think” they are signs at all until we ready ourselves to see them?  There remains the element as to the eyes of the beholder.  These asking signs, as far as I know, are not quite like the one I am describing from the 1970’s in my own experience.  I was not consciously asking for nor expecting anything like it, ever.

For daily signs, I can ask for an obvious unmistakable sign to be shown. One where I will remember; There it is! Some may see something jump out at them out of the ordinary. Suddenly you notice a bumper-sticker answering what you were just speaking to someone about. Or a rare bird or other creature will be right in your view. No telling what may stand out depending on what is going on with one. But many people do find that these signs stand out prominently and amazingly to them. And for concerns of from whence it came? If it is your subconscious, God or some other deity you may be actually asking, for some, the from where does not matter. What matters is the response to your inquiry. Share Button