A Voice Amidst Silence

A Voice Amidst Silence

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I am with you

down lonely roads

across busy crowds

listening

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You may not hear me

I am quietly here

camouflaged

to the degree

you need me to be

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I am with you

a lure of water

deserts horizon

looking back

so keep walking

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And in these forest

were life seems to surround

I am all around

invisible

everywhere

as near as near gets

as far as you think

I believe in you

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I am quietly watching

in your mind

in your life

from outside in

and inside out

listening in silence

to what you choose to hear

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Hear this…

INTELLIGENT DESIGN?

Intelligent Design?

Hubble image of the nebula within the cluster


{Image Credit: NASA, ESA, and the Hubble Heritage Team (STScI/AURA)}

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INTELLIGENT DESIGN? OR ARE WE JUST PROJECTING?

I consider myself one who values the views of science and of scientist, for their objective like approach to interpreting reality through observation. The Intelligent Design argument seemed to be a right flank move by some religious folks to bias the scientific method by casting a design net over it, seemingly to validate ones religious view on the God issue. Many people who have faith in a God, have been conditioned to view science as a challenge to their, (or is it Gods?), authority. Ultimately the individual is left with their own concept of God, and how this God is and what this God does or does not do.

There are historical positions from some church and religious quarters, that found science, and those who adhere to its presumed truths, as being contrary to Gods truth. They might go as far as to kill those who thought outside of the insiders box.  Some scientist and others thought this as well, being that they saw what seemed like institutional corruption, demagoguery and its hubris fortified authoritarianism, as not appealing to their faith in discovery, curiosity and rational reason. Curious minds need question the challenges in life as well as observation.

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Now to switch currents, I recently came across a scientist blogger who was going on about life on earth, and considering life likely on billions of earth like planets. His point was on the absurdity of Intelligent Design; for how and why would this God be embarked on subjective designing of each livable planet as creationist seem to assume for us? It seemed absurd to this person, that the vast and near infinite cosmos would have Someone bothering with each and every piece of it. But where did this diminution of Creation or its Creator come from?

I look at the whole cosmos, that we seem able to perceive, as designed perfectly for life. It is not just Intelligent Design, it is Divine Design; for we seem unable to conceive of the necessary aspects of beingness that must be in place for life as we know it. I inject this caveat as well; We tend to limit Life to what we think of as organic life. Philosophically and cosmologically, this is a great presumptive error.

Think of the differing dimensions to Life as we know it. Yes, water and its many functions just happens to be a liquid in an amazingly small portion of the thermal spectrum for our kind of organic life, yet earth like planets are right in this zone, we know of ours at least. But energy itself, sifts orderly, mathematically out into the elements to create the diversity of expression we see represented in our worlds; from air to iron, you and I and beyond. The “same thing” unfolds to bring you to this piece on the Internet. Oh, but we are just starting on phenomenal design requirements.

How about just the color spectrum and what it differentiates? Then what about photons? We can be turned into photons, and might have been those once upon a time, true, but how else are we related? Much mater and energy can go back and forth and become reimmeresed in what it was or will become. This light showing us our worlds; the stars at night I see, have photons coming timelessly just to my eyes, yours just to yours, an incredibly personal existence and emergence/convergence/emergence.

The objects we see in our world, they reflect light to us from all angles, and all the time there is enough illumination for our optical receptors, giving each in view a full picture. Simplistically, Life appears like an all knowing Internet WEB provider, where every computer can find my blog with my personal words. This just in the nature of light. I cannot conceive of beingness representing an accidental happening.  Might be my bad, but I don’t think so. If so; what a Divinely Random fortune I found. What a Divine accident has happened; everything we see and imagine, instead of pure nothingness, Being. What luck; Life is. What else It is, is that there are things we cannot ever expect to fully comprehend mentally, not Creation and not God, or why Creation is instead of a blank. A Prime Mover seems obviously implied, whatever It is.

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Think of the fullness of this Divine Design. I do say Divine, for it is immense in its unfathomable majesty, and from knowing love, belonging and loss, we are each immersed into this Same Thing, no matter how separate and disconnected our thoughts, others ideas, and moments may seem. We remain all of the above while being able to act and influence it all. This is a larger and more (if I can even say this) of a Divine Thing than I ever thought God or Divinity was while in those (threatened by science?), traditional religions. If in chaos theory a butterfly’s wing stroke might effect the weather patterns a year down the road, what of each of our own choices?

But perhaps, some science and scientist have their own bias and traditions to uphold, or cling to in the face of all this inexplicable until investigated and deconstructed into mental theory Majesty. For if I reduce myself to only dissections, the Whole of Life and Being may become harder to appreciate as a Manifestation. The Sacred Forest missed, while pondering over the fate of a dying trees fallen leaves. Can I see that even those questions fit in perfectly?

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The Divinity within and all around; We touch It personally with our love.

Oh Boy! My political tag surfing filled with short circuited conservatives

Oh Boy!

Oh Boy! My political tag surfing is filled with short circuited conservatives.

It is really an exercise in mental gymnastics, reading up on all the political conspiracy theories going on. One post suggested that sensible theory regarding a political endorsement (that Bush is keeping a low profile in the McCain campaign), represented the “kind of thinking” we would be subject to under Obama. What?

I get a kick out of how some conservative minds work; they describe a context to their liking, with its own built in assumptions, then blame the liberals for not being able to think right, like them. Then these folks go on to use that as an example of some sort of liberal press conspiracy, or “the kind of thinking” under Obama. Oh my gosh! Now, if I do not agree with someone it is evidence of their unwholesome scheming nature? Wow!

A basic context is excluded by conservative mindsets; liberalism is inclusive, while conservatism is exclusive. Liberals do not intend to eradicate conservatives, yet as the Rovian plan played out; conservatives planned to eliminate liberalism’s influence. It seems conservatives see liberals from their own exclusive mindsets. They then assume lliberalism is the enemy of a sorts. Seems conservatives cannot comprehend the expansiveness of liberalism, and instead, insist it is a view closed in some way as their own.

Then it follows that it must be closed against them. Many conservatives believe in their own perfect world or world view. Problems do not issue from perfection presumably, so they must all be caused by…, Exactly! Liberals fault! Those different thinking people. To conservatives, debate and democracy are inherently antithetical in action, though they might claim to be fore those abstractions, in the abstract. They have a bias against democracy, as well as much liberty for it implies expansion. These legitimate children of freedom must be called names and be told they are unwholesome. And on that, conservatism delivers day and night, 24/7. The liberalism of the US Constitution, and Jesus Christ, must somehow be reversed. This seems to have become much of modern day conservatism’s purpose and passion around the world.

We need not look too far to see why some conservatives only look for responsibility outside themselves. No one can force them to think about anything new in a new way. Change equals bad. No one need tell them anything about anything outside of their ideological boundaries. No one who thinks differently than they do, need think they can be right and a conservative wrong. (The consequence of not being reality based in any objective like way.) With such faith in ones own infallibility, established in some from their view of faith itself, countervailing truths will be seen as deception.

Another post said, that since coverage of Palin is so negative, it is proof of a negative biased liberal media. Maybe true. Then again, there is so much important negative information about her. She is in the position she could be the president any day if elected VP. This information must be seen, all of her evasive rationalizations, for instance, about most any subject asked of her regarding the role and function of the federal government, weigh heavily in voters consciousness, and should. I hardly think one needs be “fair” or superficially “balanced”, and so come up with the same amount of positive info. It was found that that same allegedly liberal media favored Bush in 2000 by a 2 to 1 margin. And that was because…?

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In politics, what a candidate is missing in can become all of our problem, as Bush and Cheney have so superbly demonstrated. But then, journalist have some duty to find an equal number of positives? That would have been real odd during war time if the same standard applied to being informed of our enemies perspective. But then, why then does it not? What kind of conspiracy is that one? Liberal media patriotism conspiracy? Here I am showing how circular this, who is what and when, can go.

How would that even be conceived of qualitatively, when reality is neither fair nor balanced? And of course, what if the most important things do happen to be the negative for one person and positive for another? How is serious consideration served by balancing them with something else, that in effect, becomes diversionary? Oh, and if one has not noticed, the McCain campaign has next to nothing positive to say of Obama unless it is to bolster their own view, does that make all their accusations right? Will McCain supporters have to balance these negative Obama impressions with positive ones? Should the media be “fair” and only show Obama’s point of view to counter his opponents negative ratio dominance?

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I can be wrong about just about anything. To prove me wrong is to prove me right, in that I will attempt to reestablish my perspective on truthful information given in truthful context to reflect the new reality. What point is there to living in a distorted world view? Yet how we perceive reality itself; does much to tweak our perspective to or from actual reality. If I cannot admit or comprehend my own pre existing biases, I cannot honestly perceive or receive what is happening now.

We all have ideological lenses, but one based on being open to changing ones mind is superior to mindsets that cannot admit mistakes, or that their ideology; their political or even religious bias, can contain wrong notions. Liberalism accepts this intrinsic predicament in becoming more objective. Overall. Conservatism has no such allegiance to adjusting to Living Truth in the now. It avoids contradiction by denying the evidence. There is increasing evidence of conservatism in the US, in some circles, seeking to make its world view the only acceptable one. This is a threat to democracy itself.

Liberalism’s strength of openness is considered a weakness by conservatives– because liberalism does not accept the restrictions imposed upon objectivity by an unalterable pre existing bias. Liberalism can contain the world of diversity and ambiguities. Does not make liberals always right, or say that democracy does not have negative qualities to address, that cannot permanently be fixed, for they are related to unpredictable discrepancies in human nature.

While for conservatism at large; only their way is right. And in all respect and fairness; that is a highly problematic cosmological view in the face of diverse cultures and human conceptions toward reality.  Like or believe in reality or not.

WIND THROUGH THE COTTONWOODS


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It seems like water at times

leaves rustling above our dry wash

sounds of nature some ear might know

but to me, it is just leaves that sound like water

at night I might go out to see if it really is raining

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Sometimes water does flow underneath their sun-ward climb

right now cicadas are sounding long distance calls

filling the air with the sound of maraca’s in unison

now there are again leaves shuffling while cicada’s quite

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If leaves, legs or wings are striking the air between one another

I do not know

we often do not know consciously

there are familiar yet secret things

ignored truths in the background

we do not question their existence

but we may not know what they are

or if an ear more informed is listening

an eye waiting to see a right sign

we can be alone in waiting

why this waiting

this remembering to seek

an answer we are suspecting

yet seemingly lacking in evidence?

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We may not know where to look

how to look and even why

between what common things

can be hidden infinite majesties

just what do I miss

the nose on my own face

the air carrying sound

also carrying itself

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The wind

seeking of balance

its mandate of harmony

imparts its journey to these leaves

leaves are sending me primal spiritual notes

how all is connected in ever-seeking balance

each thing relates to one another in this quest

how different are these cicada’s needs

or mine for mistaking rain

in dry rustling cottonwoods?

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There is this matter of perspective

if I lead with expectation

what I am looking for specifically

or if there is an immersive place

a place where I receive it all

not dissecting any of it

there is ability to receive

not just what I need

but what is as is full

to be with it unbiased

to let it inside

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When a certain dam washes away

we sit and receive the song of harmony

comprehend that beyond dissection

we can see invisible union

by becoming that air that is

not seen yet completely able

to receive and transmit

the movements of Life

of resounding Love

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No matter how poor I am

how inflicted and destitute

by ideas made of humankind

that disregard balance and harmony

and call the air just a pointless commodity to be used

abused and thrown away

I still have that clear place inside

to see beyond man-made distortions

see past the proofs of callus disregard

and alienation’s call of revenge

and accumulation

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I still

in that still place

touch Divine presence

open eyes into the Source

that exist beyond judging

as invisible as the wind

latent in all directions

until I recognize what is

a message being sent

though now quiet and still

through cottonwoods

a simple breeze

reminds.

Love has Eternal Depth

Love; The Soul of Being; A meditation on love and forgiveness

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ENTER NOW

NOW HOLDS THE KEY

TO FREEDOM OR SLAVERY

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what is holding me back?

a whole universe before us

but what persist inside?

is it what I missed?

times I waited

but seemed ignored?

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this next moment

can be tarred and feathered

by hurt feelings left in memories

leaving now seemingly somewhere else

the next moment can turn another way

remind of what was good

is good now still

though tender and old

and out facing into autumn

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I

we are all

I

just one I

we make thought quilts

ideas that blanket the world

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all human doings appear

with what I insist exist

where I chose to look

what I say moves

on from one I

to another

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but just I

always just

you and I

are always this I

all that decides now

what continues on

what is stopped

forgotten or lost

feared or loved

just I now

and your I

accept

or reject

life

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history

with its lust for cause

with all its endless repetition

where cause can be confused

who started what is veiled

automatic darkness

beneath loves sun

until just one I

changes course

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this barrier each I faces

do we play the old storyline

follow well worn plot pathways

that still are surrounded in wonder

but we stay on the bare trampled soil

cleared and near sterile temptation

walking ahead into history

what is stopping us ever

from truly moving forward

when one easy step

into freedom?

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Just these I’s

that is all

for history is done

no matter the horror

or wrong doings

these we command

if I take loves course

they can be forgiven now

a door opened into love

this your freedoms proof

this thing I can do

and you

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those who say no to I AM

no to forward and forgiveness

no to growing up and into love

these are the bankers of fear

seeking comfort in theft’s company

as they seek to sell souls into doubt

that which seems so easy to prove

over and over until it becomes

the vision they walk towards

a realm of love lost

backwardly

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unlike hate and fear

love takes true courage

love takes being present

love takes standing up tall

bravely opening wide up

giving in to heroic calm

to the most loving thing

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deep waters of everything

anchored to Creations Center

where all things are real

each hand held to eternity

setting a heart free

to feel each heart

such a chore

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we but need to dare

look our escapes in the face

we are stronger now than ever

undaunted by judgements

recognising the error

in orientation

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then behold

finding I AM

beginning and end

one point real power lives

giving us Its gift

right now

here

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the powerful

are those who love

those who love it all as is

including the poignancy of loss

including wandering in the desert

including the pains and forgetfulness

that makes finding even more majestic

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what is stopping your next intent

what question rules as overlord

but more importantly

who am I

without love

to say it is gone

and too hard

to be?

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I as us

you and me

do we think this is

too Utopian and easy?

too obvious to be true for

surely we should have seen it?

too impossible to coordinate

with all other sojourner I’s?

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just one moment now

just one I in time’s crest

where every moment is loved

only this one place to change

right now were I stand or fall

only one person to decide

what I will be now

be opened up to love

or look for ways to close union off

making it distant and difficult

for then I am far away

from where I belong

a lone star

outside the Milky Way

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this inside of light

behind my closed eyes

an inner truth still shines

though I may not look out

to see its caressing colors

illuminating my world

and what I am

it is easy to miss

the most obvious

when not attending

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so very simple

completely universal

problem and conflict traditions

gone in a blink and an I

gone right now

not into hiding

but into seeing our depth

we each hold our true birthright

taking the stolen strength in heart

from each fossilized mistake

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come to realize

how these become extinct

each and every time I create one

that is the power of consciousness

of I instead of what I do not know

or try to be from lacking

ever wandering seeking

missing what is receiving

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here the power of love

healing even amidst loss

strong enough to overcome

what fear and darkness bring

that light inside is eternal

known when I enter

where I am

Love

all the love

denied

all the love

waited for

all

right here

known by offering

even when receiving

the gift that comes

from giving

Love

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{The most fierce things show a moment of loves obvious presence}

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FAITH AND FRAUD; NATURAL BEDFELLOWS

"Christ in the Temple"

Faith has been defined as generally a good thing when tagged to religious tenets, while fraud is assumed to have a negative intention likely from the start. What I may not realize, as I listen to people of any faith speak of their convictions is; their conclusions are not often proved by scrutinized relationship fact, to the assumption. I will see a piece of evidence forwarded, not always in any full context whatsoever, then have the belief claimed validated by the evidence. This ignores any other control feature for the assumption. This is where the two phenomenon can share and even exchange their genes. Both seem to generated a defensiveness regarding truth once a question of authenticity is raised. Furthermore, questioning itself, becomes viewed as a source of anti-faith.

When we surrender our critical thinking abilities for belief, we also surrender a basic truth detector of fraud. Not only that, but the belief then has the “opportunity” (clever manipulators) to use our instituted ignorance, to alter faith into dark corners of rationalization. One can notice how closely politics has evolved to juggle both faith and unadmitted fraud. This is true no mater which political slot one falls into on that left to right spectrum.

It is curious to note how close the far right and left extremes can be in their actions, including some religious extremes. They tend to posses ideological lenses that cut out the full spectrum light, or knowledge based understanding. These extremes are us against them mindsets, to the degree that most anything can be rationalized as true and necessary by their adherents. Mix these with religion or cults of the individual and you have a recipe for unending conflict and misunderstanding, for those inclusive perceptions are outside the “faith”, and fraud can become embraced as revelation itself.

GOD BLESS WHOMEVER I AM TALKING TO

Both political parties contending for likely executive positions have degrees of faith in their followers, religious and socioeconomic/political faith. There tends also to be a more likely incidence of fraud being assumed to be true, when restricted wavelength understanding is part of the faith based landscape. One party in particular, applies faith, select moral values, loyalty and even presumed patriotism, as its guiding influence. There is an intrinsic problem here with interpreting TRUE reality, when filters designed to intentionally inhibit inclusion are part of the formula.

Context and inclusion of observational angles are especially essential to truth finding. Without them, we then have a structure in ways immunized against being aware of self deception.  Those who question a likely deception, can seem to these believers to be themselves deceived or ill willed.  This reverse reality seems to be counted on in the political arena.

This immunity to recognizing the real truth, might serve a sense of “pure” faith, but it in no way makes likely the pure truth. Existence with its subjective points of view embedded into human consciousness allows fraud and faith to seem both pure and true. Bias inherent to ideological lens ware, renders the individuals ability to see factual reality and truth, highly problematic. That a religion or political interest would encourage this prejudice in human consciousness, poses a direct threat to humanity. To the extent that these separation based paradigms “win” in political or spiritual debate, is the extent we all lose some bit of our sanity.

This will produce negative consequence in all areas of life. If we seek change to work toward the betterment of humankind and planet earth, we need to support change that leads to informational integration, and not its opposite. When faith embraces pride in separation, its true believers are being taken in by fraud, no matter how proud and righteous they may feel, or how far they believe they look down onto the rest of us.

THE SPIRITUAL TRUTH DETECTOR

Truth assumes inherent, unbreakable universal law and order. Human ideas of the truth, can be relative to subjective desire, and that, manipulated by oneself and or other human beings. This now potentially divergent truth held relative by abstraction, can have one believe in a presumed truth that is false, yet never know that consciously. Somewhere inside us all, however, is our own spiritual truth detector. We just have to plug it in.

Most of us claim a belief in something greater. We also believe, but may not admit it, that we live in a rational universe, and not one changing its mind or laws of being moment by moment. The evidence of fundamental consistency around us suggest the universe runs on both law and order, irregardless of our opinions of how things work out for us in any moment.

This truth has profound implications for ideas that assume God is on ones side due to behavior, belief, and their ensuing expectations. This is an expectation with an assumption towards a kind of law and order, but one skewed to manipulations by the human ego and its myriad rationalizations of its own interest driven behavior, which are, if unexamined, are easily made to not be in truth, but an opinion called the truth. What they seem to be in ones own assumptions regarding these actions in the world, can quietly go on to carry this now hidden deception.

To detect truth, I cannot assume I know it because I claim to believe in something that says its the truth. I must examine my assumption of the moment, and presume that the why to those motivations are not always purely straight forward, but may require investigation as to their honesty. The individual who does not investigate their social and cultural programming, turns off their own truth detector, then does not consciously know why. Now others can tell them what their desired truth is, and have it go unexamined as well.

CLAIMS TO A PRIORI TRUTH AND ITS CONSEQUENCES

Many religions claim to know of universal law and order. They also claim that the individual, as well as society, pays a price for violating any of these overriding laws, when designing expectational orders for oneself. Many a religion has evolved into diverging sects when the interpretation of “spiritual” laws and orders seem incorrect. Protestantism diverged from Catholicism in this manner.

So religions, at least some of them, do believe in evolution of theology and interpretation of alleged constant truths. Usually, after they have solidified their view, they then condition their followers to not diverge from that viewpoint on theology. Individually, many inside a religion such as Christianity, can have many notions of favor assumed granted by God for good behavior. Reward and punishment are powerful conditioners of behavior, that work by those who command them to their own interest, which need not themselves be factually true.

THE WORLDS CONSERVATIVE ORTHODOXY’S BELIEVE THEY POSSES THE ONE CORRECT TRUTH, YET THEY HAVE DIFFERENT BELIEFS ON WHAT THAT IS AND MEANS.

Without needing to face this contradiction inherent to conservatism, beliefs go unquestioned, unlike as in science. We have then entered a relative to human culture zone of possible imaginary truths. Some of these may be based on the real truth and produce accurate real world results, but by having these relative truths held question free, distortion and deception can be flown in right under the followers or believers radars, having the follower believe they act in and for “the truth” yet be catering to a lie. In effect, working against the true truth, while insisting on a “false truth” unknowingly.

Human nature as we currently know it, will use this ability to distort real truth, to have many serve something false, yet benefit those insisting something false is true, and not to be questioned. This is the noose the truth is wrapped up in under conservatism in human consciousness; humans profit at others expense. Conservatives will literally wrap themselves in the symbols of truth and power, national and religious symbols, as a means of not truthfully holding their own beliefs to task in an honest analysis.

They fill the vacuum in their truthful knowing, usually with emotionalized “proofs”. So called patriotism and loyalty are often devises to stop objective, honest truth seeking, and keep deceptive appearances in place instead, but skew that to seem as an individuals strength and valor. Patriotism was called the last refuge of scoundrels for reasons quite obvious to those in the know. It is used to defend the interest of some status quo or other loyalty structure, and not to defend the real truth and honesty Life calls us to invest in.

This vacuum of ignorant action carries a “charge” of insufficient knowing, making that presumed truth feel adamant to defend. We become defensive/obsessive over this inner deception, where ignorance is coated over with something we declare noble fact. Our made up truth carries its own punishment of emotional judgement. We may externalize it such as in racism, but still our own actions though thought truthful, condemn us with their dishonesty. This reflects back to that old saying; ‘judge not lest yee yourself be judged’.

Where this conservatism has impact on the culture and world, it damages humankind and the earth, while assuming no responsibility for the consequence of its actions. To avoid responsibility, conservatism will shame and blame those who do not agree with the full aspect of the unquestionable assumptions. When this is occurring, one can be quite certain that deception is being catered to in the name of good or even God (or racial, moral or political purity).

Both the violent actions of 9-11-01 and much of the tagged to it later response, demonstrates two differing angles of how conservatism manipulates the commons, or the world, to enforce its disturbed world view. It is disturbed because it denies critical thinking, so enables distortion. It is in reality, against the full truth of Life and Love.

The answer to 9-11-01 was unconditional love; addressing the very source of the ignorance ingrained in the aggressive conservatives who believed in might makes right, and not the unbridled truth. This answer would have addressed the wounded as well as the lifestyles producing the disturbed individuals that conservatism could so easily manipulate to act for a perverse “love”. Many of us felt this imperative to understand and address the fundamental core of misunderstanding, our ignorance of others.

Instead, conservative reaction resorted to might makes right, its basic underlying creed, denying a need for deep understanding. To this convoluted reactionary mindset, the only viable response is surface based, just as conservatism actually is, by attacking the attackers with the same mindset of revenge. In effect, hate was chosen over love, and it will continue to produce its cycle of disastrous results. Conservatives employ this madness over and over, for that is the nature of darkness; it fains the light it can never grasp.

You will notice how conservatism is obsessed with diverting ones attentions to the immoral and the criminal of its definition. It then proscribes might makes right, demanding unquestioning conformity or continuing punishment. No need to look at the actual facts of the mater that create the conditions humans act in. Just condemn them by their actions, and care not what becomes of Life’s investment in them.

Conservatism seeks to turn the individual into a creature who does not evolve and adapt to changing circumstances in the most basic sense. It aborts life. This fact almost single handedly, makes abortion a potent weapon for the right to seduce the well intentioned with its pro-life presupposition. The well intentioned pro-life stance, maneuvered cynically, can snare the unquestioning individual to support an ideology damaging and aborting life at many levels otherwise. But those questions will be conditionalized and marginalized to obscurity, as they must for deception to keep emotions seeming pure and righteous.

It, in effect, denies what Life is asking specifically from situation to situation. Inserting various philosophical proclamations and absolutes in their place, to avoid the consequences of reality itself. This is why conservatives are anesthetized to much empathy and compassion across conceptual borders. They are separated from life itself, and following imposed assumption upon the God given world.

YOU ARE AS YOU ARE

Yet since conservatism holds no allegiance to Love nor accountability to investigative reason; towards the lack of it, in the name of righteous revenge, it lets stand the actual very conditions that lead to the original violation. Along with the cultured inability to comprehend the conditions and consequences that that ignorance or intentional blindness creates in an orderly and rational universe. Minds so ill and uniformed as to conceive of terror as righteousness. Conservatism falls to its own vice of not owning the consequence of its own action.

With a seemingly blissful ignorance, it can go on to chastise “impotent” liberalism, when the fact is, true understanding is never achieved in the conservative mind, and a host of assumptions and reactive judgements buttress its contempt for the commons of humanity. All of humankind is now party to any of its actions, and this requires a great sense of responsibility and justice. The truth still does set one free.

Above all, it requires a profound love of the full truth, and not emotionally manipulative half truths and allegation. You can witness in elections and policies, conservatism’s separation of humankind into reactive us and them’s. Paramount to this campaign of inherent division, will be an avoidance of any full objective inquiry. Absolute abstractions will be used as roadblocks to understanding, in order to truncate knowing the full truth of human action and reaction, along with these cycles of perpetual conflict endemic to many a conservative cause beneath the glowing platitudes and self righteous pretension. And so we notice all the one word summation conceptions, and loaded phraseology that conservatism readily employed to divert its adherents from turning on their God given full truth detectors.

THE DIVINE FAVORS US

This relative to behavior response expected from the Divine, creates many assumptions that are now bent to blatant political, economic and sociocultural ends, yet having those ends seem to be identified with the interest of the Creator itself. This has become problematic for democracy and rational reason, seeming to place conservative notions under the protectorate of Divine Will, when it is irrational to do so. That irrationality, or belief the Creator will favor you and thus, in a consistent law and order universe, not someone else, all based on ones beliefs, and not factual truths.

This becomes a Pavlovian like mindset matrix, where existence becomes a shopping mall, where either good deed or not sinning is presumed to access one to the good life. A political ideology, can then wrap itself in these sorts of rationalizations, controlling the believers by controlling what is defined as good deed and sin, selectively ignoring those it wishes off the consideration radar due to contradiction.

I am speaking here, of practical day to day spirituality, or the way the individual lives out their beliefs in these laws and orders assumed of Creation. Religion seems devoted to consolidating its followers, while often alluding to the outer world of other beliefs as skewed to interest apparently other than the “truth” of that theologies cosmological perspective. It is clear that much religion these days, is designed to entice new converts. Sometimes referring to a purity of conservative notions the church has of in its orthodoxy, or the individuals submission to their religious mission, as a proof of true faith itself. Still other strategies of attraction, are in validating the lifestyles of the sought after believers, a kind of subjective pandering to gain a following. Cults and some religions end up encouraging us and them definitions, though they may claim to be open minded. Only the most liberal religions seem to extend the grace of valid belief to others not in that faith.

COME GET YOUR FAITH

This brings me to the shocking super mall theology evolving in the “more advanced” western cultures. If one watches many TV ministries, as millions of American do, they learn how illness and monetary success are all at your command by giving full support to the theology of the media ministry. Somehow, it all so logically comes down to money being sent to prove your connection to supporting the truth.

In a mega church I attended a couple Christmases ago, in a moment of humble self appraisal, a minister noted that lining up ones ducks into spiritual order was not all that was required, and that you had to do more than “vote Republican”. A truly mind-numbing assertion, given the underlying impression of us and them implied in righteousness via politics and associated faith. While saying these words, one could also watch various religious themed video’s going on across several mega screens, all coordinated to create an atmosphere of good times and wholesome hearts.

It was a generic church, in that it seemed to cater to material abundance, with a right wing political overtone, yet no stiff requirements or expectation, as one might encounter in a Catholic service, or more traditional fundamentalist. Much conservative like literature was available there. I came away thinking, this is a veiled political meeting, catering to those who know there are world problems, maybe even some at home, but having much is fine, thank the Lord very much. But what is most fine, is attacking liberalism.

I often see these attacks on liberalism most curiously self contradictory, since they are made possible by liberalism itself, which generally does not censor views, but promotes variety of opinion and argument. What welcomed one into this atmosphere at his particular mega-church was its acceptance of everyone apparently, then its assumption that we all kinda think the same way. It benefits from a liberal face, then sets up the ideological programming to only run in one direction. This church had rock groups, some with the church leaderships family members in them. It combined entertainment embedded with an ideology that views the culture at large, as containing some kind of “other” enemy. And it was assumed one voted Republican. I had heard some of these suburban mega-churches were the new Republican recruiting base, little did I realize that they were so overtly entwined.

LET ME TELL YOU WHAT GOD SAYS

Notorious examples of this shopping for results was demonstrated when a famous TV televangelist preacher asked the audience to pray for the deaths of liberal Supreme Court justices. This goes beyond the rational law and order view of the universe, presuming that we can seduce or call the Divine Being to do what we want for our own self defined reasons, which we then stamp in the Divines name, claiming It wants us to act this way against someone else. Abraham Lincoln, I believe, made a pertinent statement regarding God being on our side, and our enemy believing, God is on their side.

Needless to say, yet these days of solipsistic pandering of spiritual theologies, it must be said; these sorts of begging God to change the direction of existence to suit our self obsessed “needs” is spiritual bankruptcy. It is the encouraging of insanity, a rendering of the deep spiritual nature of Life and Being, to a shopping list, now quite politically motivated, of us and them creationism, dependent upon our judgement of others. As if Life does not have us all here together. It seems the most fundamental spiritual insight has been thrown out the window. It is unconditional Love that releases both mistake and judgement. It is forgiveness that liberates the spiritual will. Are we to play God and selectively deprive others of this saving grace?

They may say they are not judging others, but the theology itself in many a Christian church, is judgement based, self judgement and the judgement of others. Why else do you claim a right to pray for people to die, unless you are deluded into thinking you actually are guiding Gods judgment. And it seems to be the case; that Gods name in this way, is taken in vain. The teaching of Christ was present tense inclusive of all, now it is reversed and only granted to the groups true believers. Lip service given to everyone else who can be “saved” if only they act like everyone else in the group. Classic cult possession, but once ones critical thinking is impaired, and possibly biased against detecting those real Universal Laws and Orders, one is opened up for their abstract truths becoming their opposite, or anti-belief, yet claimed and felt to be true to oneself. With no right to question. How convenient!

Most theologies show these signs of selective existentialism, pandering to their seductive strengths to catch more individuals to outgrow their opposition, which seems to be everyone else. But to hear what are considered evangelicals supposedly praying for a pipeline, as Sarah Palin did last June, is a spiritual distortion beyond belief. It is clearly political and economic favoritism, detached from the Universal Love of Creation.

GOD FIX MY LIFE NOW AND I’LL THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I’LL BE GOOD, I PROMISE.

To think that our private benefit is catered to by the Divine simply by asking favor, is outstanding in its shallowness and contempt for Universal Law and Order. As if tugging on Gods pant legs gets us what we want since we feel it is good to our own interest, which we then conveniently claim are achieved for Gods own sake. As blatantly convoluted as these rationalization seem, to their beholders, they are warm, fuzzy and rewarding; praise the Lord. Many a conservative follower is kept in this childlike emotional state, where a kind of cosmological bribery keeps the children in line with the big threat of hell as the final paddle.

This kind of spirituality requires a derailed sense of Creation. It seems to not recognize that the Divine may not want all that oil burned and put into the air now to destroy the earth, while handily making our state and friends happy in the interim. It is obvious madness, when compared to consistent and Universal Laws of Being. It implies contempt for the commons; the interest of the planet and all humankind that can be ignored for what I want. It is what I call critical thinking impairment. These days, that impairment is promoted as a most valuable commodity. It is obvious in its shallowness why. Much wealth and power come easily from its use, while the damage caused is tagged to ones opponents.

THE DISTORTION MIRROR BOUNCES AWAY ITS SELF PERCEPTION, SEEING IT”S REFLECTION IN OTHERS

Conservatism attracts racism and prejudice for a reason; no fact checking required, just a lot of ad-hominem attitude as proof. The right wing news and talk shows thrive on this despising of others. And off course, they despise those like me here, who point it all out. For these separation ideologies to exist, they need to cut out the connections of the commons, inserting value judgements instead. Much attitude driven judgement becomes the hallmark of conservatism. Truth in truthful full context is the last thing it wants to see or be called to account for.

Conservatism works, because it instills a distrust in objective reasoning, and produces shame and denial as preservative byproducts. Now one can hold these us against them notions while claiming to be for a holy abstraction and cause–for your God given critical thinking ability has been damaged, and damaged intentionally to manipulate darkness in the name of light. What other honest answer do you have for all the misleading and false statements on the conservative right designed to contaminate the perception of truth in realty?

There is a correlation of basic attitude dominance pandering in the insecure male, who acts tough and may pursue looking tough, to protect himself from his true self image. Many men culture this tough exterior, because it can be used to intimidate, yet it is most often exerted on those “sure” to be more weak than oneself. Many men are spiritually stunted at early ages from this defensive reaction to develop the appearance of a though offense; so don’t mess with me. I hurt when you look inside too closely.

Yet at its core, a fragile identity is hiding behind the armor. Conservatism is much this way, with institutions, status quo and hierarchy using force to maintain a tough appearance. The world labors under this curse insecurity thrust around the globe, with men mostly challenging each other and trying to beat the other guy. Just look at conservatism’s emotional strategy; blaming segments of society who usually are have nots. Using force mostly to lock people away. It is a bully based belief system, and not one of unconditional Love. Exactly what the conservatives are looking for deep within themselves, yet feel the culture takes away from them. It is not surprising that from the outside, many conservatives seem hopelessly insecure and immature, while they may claim, as a child, to play acting like the grownups and be confident of everything.

They are addicted to this get tough philosophy, that hides a wounded inner child who felt love was taken away, by hostage threat or abandonment of affection and care. Conservatives need a constant stream of people to blame; sinners, criminals, terrorist, and now the culture “war” against aspects of liberalism. They are emotionally disturbed, and seeking revenge for their loss of love. There are many to be targeted with shame for seeming to harm innocence, which conservatism claims it often stands for, but unfortunately, it is the loss of innocence that makes up the actual skeleton of conservative reason. Many of them are bitter and hard hearted for a reason. They believe force, and might makes right for a reason; not strength, but spiritual bankruptcy. Conservatives are set up for manipulators to provide them with selective “holy” crusades, to make their own cognitive dissonance seem good, for it projects what seems the good fight, the noble cause.

The Universal empathy and compassion of Christ, for instance, for the sick, poor and even the criminal, was because Christ did not judge and abort Gods investments in lives, even if they were not succeeding by society’s definition, or in other ways compromised by bad decision. Christ, it seems, believed in redemption no matter what one did or believed. Christ only hint at exclusion, seemed his anger in the Temple, when predatory conservative economic interest were using the commons even there, for self benefit. If one does not see the Temple as a lesson for each life as it is enticed to sell out to separation ego benefit interest, one obviously misses the most salient point.

THE RIGHT PEOPLE TO TRICK AND THEN GET TREATS FROM

Now we have this deception going under the conservative individuals radar, since separation is now stealthily disguised. Lot’s of external blame targets are required to keep this critical thinking impairment viable. Keep tying up well intentioned emotions, even alluding that they are in the Divines interest, then carry out your manipulation of the commons for power and self interest, which is always the pathway to corruption. In the current election, pointing out the truth of what the conservatives have said, even with video evidence of them doing so, is denied and called manipulative liberal media bias.

It is now a bias to point out the truth over these conservatives invented truths in their self rationalizing universe, not the real one. It is no accident that conservative campaigns run on demonizing the opposition, then pandering to platitude. It is the way of deception and deferral to subjective rationalization as the life-raft to the insecurities stimulated by the emotional attack. This is not brilliantly effective campaigning, as the corporate media and others assume, it is the way to confuse the public and use that same public trust against itself, effectively harming all.

The “culture of corruption” just carried out in Washington under the conservative banner, now requires an attention diversion to keep the facts out of public consciousness. Spiritual abstractions can always be called in if anyone calls deception to its face. “I thought you liberal people were forgiving? I thought you all did not judge others. Seems you only like to judge successful people.” Eerily familiar as the Scribes and Pharisees, but now considered leaning on the evangelical side of righteousness. Destroying critical; thinking ability, lets existential comparison in to seem as objective inquiry, but actually be a shell game.

THEY PLAY AND WE PAY

It is mind boggling to think someone may become vice president and so president, who is so detached from reality, that they believe you ask God to vote for pork barrel projects. It is no wonder that now blatant economic prejudice can masquerade as healthy religious belief. With critical thinking down and out in the conservative mindset, it seems they cannot even comprehend their own extraordinary contradictions. When I was a full-time member of a church, the momentum of consensus supposition carries one into believing many an unsubstantiated connection, as a true one of Gods making, just because true believers want it. Actually, just because we all say so, and assume we are on the side of good.

This is how their now Orwellian like language use, seems seemingly innocent and patriotic to them, while those who do not support this deception are considered supporting the enemy. For the anti-beliefs of conservatism to pass as honest belief, truth’s head needed to be cut off and a false idol inserted. It is why science and other attempts at objective reasoning, are condemned by the conservative power structure.

They obviously do not wish their followers to comprehend the real operational truth, nor the manipulations going on in the name of truth and righteousness, that allowing tough questioning would reveal, for the truth need not hide. They also need an arsenal of whipping boys and scapegoats to cover their trail and make it look as someone else is the source of the problems, the criminal, the terrorist, the liberals. Yes, even those walking factually in Christ Way.

NOT ONLY MAY GOD BE LOVE; LOVE MAY BE ALL THAT IS REAL TO FULL TRUTH

What is really missing in the debate over truth, is Love itself, the one thing in this world, conservatism seems to have the least generosity of. By attracting the confused, the bitter, the “traditional”, and the users of others into a superficial spirituality, that denies love at so many turns in our cultural highway, but promotes a self love, pandering to Divinity to gain favors makes solid sense. As if God rewards mindless flattery and robot like conformity. That is the taking of the Divine’s name in vain.

Some of this seasons choice over the light and the dark we Americans make for our perceived self interest, will not be true, but instead, the opposite of what we think. This too, is the nature of belief and knowing, when critical thinking is condemned to obscurity. The world has all it needs for all of us to live in peace and prosperity. We all could be there for one another, without religious, racial, ethnic or ideological”brands” of any kind preventing love and understanding from spreading their connecting light in unconditional Love.

However, some of us have no interest in this common truth, but instead, seek separation, with its superiority/inferiority complexes, along with all their denial. These keep us and them mindsets in front of the common truth, blackening the light received from the One Creation. And so humans, with appropriated from the commons power, corrupt this earth in perception, seeking not union, but division and “winning”.

The price we all pay for leaving reality behind, and following conservative delusions of grandeur? Not knowing the glory of Unconditional Love manifest in consciousness throughout this world and its people. Leaving that behind as well.

This is to all of you who can perceive the Divine Light of Being, holding no false images before that deep essence of us all. May our excuses fall before the Light. Until that day dawns, keep loves fire burning free.

Religious Trouble; the God Game

After attending another interfaith meeting on the Muslim Challenge to what is common to it and Christian faith, I remain boggled at both religion and human influence pedaling on the “True one God” or “One True God” or “God and no other god”.

I was raised to accept the Catholic bureaucracy as a kind of automatic pilot God machine. It was such a machine that it nearly never had to mention or talk about the Bible much at all. Imagery, ritual, and most importantly, programing as the one true church, was all it needed. Don’t go to church and you will likely go to hell, unless right at the end you happened to have Extreme Unction?

As I understood it, the Extreme Unction thing, if given in time, could forgive your sinful self and still get you into heaven. Once again, better stay connected to the church or else you risk a forever in hell. A place of apparently eternal torture of some questionable kind.

Mystify and Dominate

My opinion on religion has evolved into this over time from researching its historical roots, my own experience and observations; most religions seem to start out with one figures extraordinary experience or apparent message from something greater than we. Many of these messages go on to become institutionalized and reassembled by followers.

Many of the rituals have precedence in previous pagan or pantheistic concepts reworked to a newly defined unified theory–one true God. But now it becomes about institutional self preservation as the prime directive. Mystical secret or expert only knowing, gets solidified by circular reasoning’s no questions to the controlling core or else, finality’s. We end up with the know for certain club of entrenched “true” believers behind a spiritual-cultural paradigm and in some cases legions of followers.

Those two originating factors may be gone by now (first spirituality’s and a vision of Divine union). The now Sacred Prophets experience is usually felt by followers to be a magnetic one, one of profound revelation of a Love that extends to all things. Religions then go on to define their particular “brand” as the true one. The originating motivations are now mere symbols of remade traditions that have an operational life and cause of their own; continuing to attract and contain followers, or else.

I have had such a transformational transcendent experience (spiritual epiphany) when I was an agnostic at 27 years old. It carried no religious imagery of any known system of belief to act as a colored lens of interpretation. I was just cast into the presence of an absolute Love for a brief moment one night when walking down a city street. It effected my perceptions for days, as if the Divine rent open the night sky and handed me a gift. I have never had that all pervasive experience since, but it did change my then only scientific view of what reality is made of.

My generic experience

It seems to leave one who has it with a mission statement, but one hard to swallow; I was wrong about so much of my life and how I see and judge things. Most of the world I am aware of, as an individual perceives it by news and ones own living of it, suggest most others are in that same boat. We bale and bale the water out our whole lives, waiting on something profound to become sure. We try to arrange our lives to have some love and meaning in it.

If we are fortunate, we might have a passionate place in society, where we are valued by family and we value others. We can also be alienated, with profound feelings of separation from others. This sense of separateness might leave us feeling unloved, possibly even in a universe which seems to not care a thing about us. We may be attracted to religious or scientific notions of what life and its limits are.

How could someone as alienated as I actually was, live up to a vision that impressed me with the sense that everything is only actually born of Love? I had never acted or behaved as such. Who was I to turn into? A preacher?–Hey! I had this experience! No! Wait a minute. Stop! Listen! I really did! Hey stop!

I could not tell others how to have a transcendent experience. My life showed little evidence that I practiced what I preached. My behavioral patterns were quite entrenched. It seemed I’d have to fix me first before my mission could proceed. Long story short; day after day my “enlightenment” receded into the background, remaining as a kind of personal talisman to spiritual experience that serves me to this day.

Years latter I had a different kind of spiritual realization. The first and only time I tried it. I had heard at a health class, the instructor telling someone, (who asked after class if he believed it was possible), how to “do” astro-projection–leaving ones body. The next day I tried it. That really shook me up, but it left me with, not a sense of Love, but one of life and awareness beyond the body. A shocking view of consciousness beyond the dust and water we are made of, again tested my notions of the bounds of empirical experience.

Like the prior profound experience, I was left with no fear of death. Many of us who are in deep ways afraid to fully live, are haunted by a fear of death. I have come to assume that is our own life in a kind of stasis waiting to be brought fully to life, as if there is a mission and our boat is not up to making that journey, so we wait in a kind of fear zone, worried over our rising water. Some religions and other beliefs say this has to be because we are always sinners, so must do everything they say to save ourselves.

BACK TO THE GOD AND RELIGION THING

This brings me back to many religions who hold that fear zone card over the head like a guillotine, saying; follow us or else. It is a powerful card to hold, promise Divine Love or at least respect and eternal life on the one hand, and a card of damnation in the other. This see-saw works between ideal or belief and the realities of experience. I (we) am usually not omniscient enough to be perfect always to my ideals and beliefs. Then if will follow that I have baggage of fallen rock in my spiritual boat that always threatens to sink me, hence the recipes of how to cast the rocks out; by rejection, types of denial, persecution of self or others, and pandering to a Divine One to forgive my Divinely created fallibility’s.

(Then there is authentic contrition, not based on damnation but on loves return releasing guilt. This is available to everyone no matter faith or not, so I will not attach it to any particular belief system, though it may be claimed by them as their special awareness or compensation.)

BUT WE HAVE TO TRUST IN SOMEONE OR SOMETHING.

It all might be of the best intentions. This can become a pseudo-spiritual headlock. Gridlock of the soul enmeshed in a surrender to apparent authorities who presumably have or are privy to more truth. We become the forsaken, since we are not allowed to truly examine spiritual tenets, presumptions and authorities. We become addicted to the cause, be it of truth, fantasy, illusion or some fusion between.

Many religious institutions were once cults of a possibly enlightened individual. They regress to hierarchical structures, ridged rules and behavioral regulations, and with the perversions of might making rights obvious or subconscious fear cards (damnation and hell). Usually various forms of male dominance over women’s apparent practical connections to the creative powers of life. These religions now come to present a kind of threat to our continuing physical existence on earth. Did not whomever’s one true God know what mischief followers would get into over the one true turf battles? Is this one true God really obsessed with judging our fallibility’s and whether we acknowledge God’s existence, or say God’s name in the “right” language?

The usual answer to questions is a circular reasoning short circuit; that– one cannot question God or “His” ways. Brain unplugged, mission accomplished!

WHO IS RESPONSIBLE?

We are told we have free will so we are all responsible, yet much of government, religion and culture is often about shunting off communally unacceptable free will adventures, usually because in the operational consensus reality, harm or dysfunction result from those ideas that pop into our heads, and so need to be controlled.

Fair enough, I say. But if we are prevented from examining our taboos and laws for their continuing relevance, we are machine robots and not conscious and responsible beings. If I act the way I do because of treats or threats of punishment, I am not actually being responsible. I am essentially being forced or tortured (in future) into so doing. A Pavlovian experiment gone big time. There is little merit in mindless control, yet orthodoxies, in particular, seek out mindless (unquestionable) behavioral control as a solution to reoccurring apparent dysfunction. They literally become insulated from examining if truth itself, a living truth, is being prevented from being known, because of might makes right institutionalized circular reasoning mind control.

CONTRADICTIONS AND CREATION

There are religions out there that believe you can buy your ancestors into heaven. Imagine the controlled perceptual notions that equate money with salvation after you are already gone! But how convenient a fund raising gimmick!

Many seemingly have you in the position that if you are not perfectly conforming to books and dogmas, because of your mistake or stupidity, you will be eternally tortured by a God the Sadist-Supreme Terrorist. I wonder who could have actually inserted those notions into society for rote control? Any ideas?

While some are urged to be in constant fear over their own God given bodies and abilities, other are issued guarantees of favor now or in the afterlife, if only they do what whomever is saying to them. Many TV religious pop shows promise health and healing, pandering to the ill and a fear of death, most always followed by a God needs us to buy another satellite to pass the word. Interesting how God was kinda strapped in until writing and now rockets came to be. Now the holy word of someones liking can be spread far and wide. Of course you must send in your part of the retirement check to join in Gods mission through whomever. God, it seems, is quite dependent upon fund raising.

FAITH IN FICTION

Most of what I have presented can be described as nothing more or less than monkey business. It has all the attributes of domination and mystification–Darwinian power tricks and truths. It attempts to shut down critical (God given) critical thinking abilities. It seems to promote a highly conditional love and acceptance to behavior. It in effect, marginalizes God to human control features, requiring obedience, begging, not facing the source of ones own actual motivations, thus empowering evil as a reactionary power. It makes God out to be a dysfunctional ego addict, needing endless pandering from more unable creatures to what? Feel good about Itself? Know it has created robots who learn to suppress their own God given inquisitive and exploration abilities for a frozen in place ethos?

The interfaith meeting I started this post with is about the Muslim challenge to Christians to meet the two basic laws of Love; Love of God and Love of neighbor. In essence I am for this. However I believe much of these faiths are in the very position I was; where is the operational evidence in my own life of these beliefs?

I was privy to have experienced the union of Love across all things and apparent problems of being. I believe everyone can have this presentation given to them if it is so required. How much more noble, how much more of merit if we were to not require being dragged into the transcendent, but came to recognize it as the organizing principle of Being. Who is able to activate their own minds and hearts to get past programing and touch the fullness of Being, without being scared to dare know for oneself? This is always the problem of deprogramming from cults, just to get you own will back.

Love flows in, through and around us continually. It is I who chose to look otherwise by appearances. No matter what you or I have done or not done, It is there unconditionally, with Arms open.

This I have known, and at my most conscious, can see as obvious and true.

VIOLENCE AND SELF CONTROL

Being involved with family violence control puts me in an odd situation.

I have avoided physical fighting my whole life. Childhood became the most significant influence on this. My father had told me, and I took it as holy law, that you as a guy, do not strike women. I cannot say that my older sisters and I did not have shoving matches, but for me that would have been self defense. Our family dynamics was heavy on the mental sparing which can seem actually more devastating.

The physical violence in our house was later done, after my mothers death, by a step mother-guardian. She would not hesitate to hit, throw objects and threaten with knives. She sent my father to the hospital with a big gash across his forehead. I slept with the largest kitchen knife under my pillow as a self defense plan for a knife attack while I was asleep. She had hit me in the face while I was asleep, then locked me out in the snow in my pajamas. My father committed suicide not long after that.

Earlier I had incidences when someone seemed to be threatening my life as a freshman high school. I was literally about 100 lbs. and someone morbidly obese around 500 lbs, held me under water to near drowning during pool time in a crowded pool. He had done this more than once. It became so serious to me (swallowing-inhaling watter) that I thought I would have to take matters into my own hands. One more time, and I was going to put him in a headlock with my legs around his neck and hold him under until it meant something. I was a totally inhibited kid and did not trust authority to do anything but blame the victim. So I had to weigh in my mind, possibly causing someones death and being called and treated as a murderer.

As it turned out, he never did that again. But I was sure it would have been me to blame and I would have felt I had no options in my own self defense. No one seemed to notice him doing this during the pool commotion, so I believed no one would accept my story. It just never came through to experience. In physical confrontations during boyhood, I found I had to keep the potential for rage out of me, especially since I had no doubt that I would take down someone twice my size. It took someone quite a bit larger and older to overcome me. I was afraid of my rage and how if unleashed it would seem out of my control.

(As evidence that I am not just delusional about this strength proclamation. When it rained a lot during physical education, outdoor activities were called off and we were put into the gym, we freshmen and the sophomores, to have a thing called “bombardment”. This is where there are two sides chosen, a line across the middle of the gym, where the two sides throw rubber balls a little smaller than a soccer ball at each other. Out of about 150 students divided in two, little me was one of the last picked, last or second to last.

Well the first game I discovered that being in the lower 10% in size had me a bit afraid, so I hung back as many did. All it took was the guy next to you ducking and a ball out of nowhere taking you out, while leaving a big red mark somewhere. I decided to risk all and take it to the line next game.

You could see most of what was being thrown up front. I found out I could catch any-ones ball thrown at me, but no-one could hold onto mine. I was also very accurate. I won that game. The last guy standing. I was picked second of all players next game. The team first picking, picked his seeming best friend first, so I was first on the other team picked. The next game was the last. It oddly ended up being me the last standing on my team, and a very out of shape guy hiding and dodging in the corner on the other side when the period ran out. I could no longer throw fast enough to eliminate time for him to move. That is how little old me was as a skinny five feet two.)

TRUTH VS ADVICE

What I just said I cannot say to someone involved in family violence. As far as physical violence goes, I do not hit women. I have told ones who gave me any actual physical provocation that, “If you do that again, we are over!” I do not tolerate fighting, especially in the home relationships. I try to avoid physical confrontations with anyone. Now that I am a “senior citizen” I find you are not seen as a threat overall, or there is a kind of automatic respect. Most of that sense of being on guard is much diminished now. I take peace as my way and it path is most often open.

I have found that emotional abuse has prove a bit more difficult to not take part in, compared to a sense of law that one just never does such a thing. I grew up that way, making fun of someones mistake or being ridiculed. It is then a model of behavior I have had to contain and reverse. To do that requires a will and an understanding of the Golden Rule or Categorical Imperative. I need to establish the sense that not only does “what goes around comes around.”, but it is already damaging my life. Abusing others in any way is profoundly self abuse.

I need to see (learn to recognize) when I am treating another like I would not wish to be treated, and immediately review what my self respect or control problem really is. We are often given the information from another that we are on some kind of attack and they becoming defensive, or initiating their own retaliations.

Still, when expressing guidance to someone, it will often fall flat if it is preached or describes as something I am so above, and can’t understand how someone could do such a thing. That fits as a key with very few dysfunctional programs. I have to speak out of and through my own life, the love in your heart has to be in it, to be a gift expected to have a chance at being received.

PROGRESSIVE OR REACTIONARY

In some ways I have described political tactics and ways of manipulation. All manipulation is in some way an abuse of the truth. Its vibrational disturbance will not go unnoticed, except perhaps, by like minded dysfunction. The same situations and rationalizations that come to effect home life are used in the greater life of our world. Even if everyone does it, doesn’t make it right.

We will find manipulative arguments covered if various guises meant to hide their intention, and instead, be represented as your own interest. Fear and insecurity are great hiding places for manipulative interest. Optimistic vision can also be used as a trick to catch someones interest, then later prove to have been a ruse. We need to be both critically minded on the one hand, and have our heart held out open in the other. True adults can do this.

The upcoming election seems to be being based on fear and insecurity vs. hope and optimism, both of these being held as paramount in differing ways by the candidates. I am not saying that we are not justified in having these inclinations. What I am encouraging is the “true believers” and the doubtful to have their wits about them. As citizens and voters, it is up to us to determine the fact from fiction, the hidden agendas from the promises of safety and security. For power will seek to inject its corruptions into all areas of life if let be.

We each are freedom, love, and truths best and last hopes. Better to stand with understanding under their tall light, than the ignorance that festers in the shadows of misunderstanding.

DOWN WITH GOVERNMENT! the reluctant anarchist

THE RELUCTANT ANARCHIST

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What governs our lives besides government?  We must address the influences that impose upon our will beyond what is conventionally assumed to be “The Government”, or the impulse, the natural impulse to be fully and freely you, me, we might be throwing rocks from inside our own glass house.

I am an anarchist. No, not the rock throwing destroy everything kind, if that truly is a kind. I believe anarchy to be the highest state of freedom, but it only works if we are all on the same page, at home or in the world.  A universal enlightenment. Sorry if anyone thinks they are actually cut out of creation or independent of it.

That burst my free as can be Utopian balloon doesn’t it?

It does if you think humanities problematic behaviors are unsolvable.  The question becomes; when can I trust you to not accidentally or intentionally inhibit my life by your actions into my life?  Personally, I have no plans to take advantage of you; to take from you more than you earned as is done under some scheme. I am living a very low impact life, not adding to pollution at a whim, buying very little and recycling materials I create when deconstructing something.

That said; I live in the USA, and you and I are adding much unhealthy elements to the air, sea and land, while in some respects imposing our will on the world without overt permission.  As a would be anarchist, I have much accounting to do over our collective actions that I as a voting citizen have some accountability in.  Unless the idea of anarchy is to avoid being held accountable by natural law as well, then it not much more than a convenient abstraction delusion escape clause.  Being a real and responsible anarchist, and not an oxymoron, personal identity issues, as well as philosophical tenets, must be addressed.

I believe that when humankind is both healthy and communicative over needs(= full relevant information access), and aspiration, we can do away with government as we know it. No one to fight, no one to bribe for votes, no one to blame. This will need be the case one day if we are to survive, particularly if we step off the planet to explore the next shores. At home or with friends, one can now be as anarchistic as one wishes to be. To see how that goes by trying it, would be a first place to start.

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LIBERAL OR CONSERVATIVE? LIBERTARIAN? THEOCRATIC?

I am sadly amused when I read blogs about conservatives being anti-government and liberals pro-government, since if one looks at history, both sides can be in great states of denial. To some extent some liberals completely forsake economic realities that are not changing very fast without a spiritual-understanding revolution, which will probably be forced upon us by shock and an awe of a regional or global kind, and not gotten to through our “higher angels”.  But I am for calling up our higher angels when we have that kind of courage on our own.  It is better to add health to the world than to take it away, but therein lay much identity obfuscation.

Then there are certain conservatives that seem to think anarchy is fine for their business or self interest in some predatory Darwinian dominator based psychology, or more accurately, dysfunctional ego grandeur hardly disguised by their superiority complexes (hiding insecurity/inferiority self haunting), and accompanied cognitive noose around the neck convictions. Sure they hate certain liberal pro-government notions. Those are contrary to their detached individualism’s psycho-spiritual assumptions.

Don’t tread on me and I won’t tread on you

I am mixed in practicalities about the libertarians, as I assume they are about themselves. They are part made up of both the right and left; want more direct say in their lives and reject what seems like undo external influence of organized power structures that obstruct the individual. Liberty abstract and pure, yet where is the real context of each individual being?—-in an interconnected web of world relationships.

It is fantastic to feel I am self-regulating and need no other comments on my doings, unless I trample on others rights.  But that is often the back burner issue; do I know for a certainty that my freedom is not oppressing you?  If I dump my motor oil on my property, do you really have no say next door or a mile away?

How about when your water from your well gets laced with carcinogens leaching off my property? Still not my problem? It seems some libertarian energy comes from the; freedom to do what I want but not be held accountable unbridled escapism ego opportunism lust.  Might be why some freedom loving folks try to undo science with its interrelationship consequences and all. To me, and I think of myself as a libertarian at heart, some libertarians kind of live for a future Utopia, where they are untethered by others consequence, without necessarily looking at present realities close enough to see how they will creep up on them, and perhaps crash their balloon.

I happen to love people on all these philosophical and political stances. Without an interrelated platform for agreement or conflict resolution, what resource will you have if you know I am poisoning your water table, yet you also know I am a arrogant “individualist” who listens to no one?

One of the most important issues in human cognition, or lack of it, is cognitive dissonance.  Once I’ve formed my identity with tags linked to nice abstractions, like freedom, I may well contour my self reflection and my view of the world to avoid knowing where and when I am self contradicted.  This sort of ego adaptation will leave its psycho-spiritual contortion festering within the self.  The experience of consciousness then becomes more problematic, given that ignorance, as a kind of firewall, has become instituted in perception.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_dissonance

THAT SACRED DIVINE THING

SAY WHAT?

No!  Not the secret agenda!

Who wants to hear your religious jumboed mumbo?

Why! Why did you have to go there?

Being on spaceship earth is a big abstraction to some, so lets imagine that International Space station, or you can make up your own closed human ecosystem.  Well what happens if I get disgruntled and poke holes in the wall?  What if on a space walk I go about tearing off protective coverings cause, well, I’ve just had it with all the idiots in there.

One person. One decision. One intention. One problem unaddressed. One idea left to fester. Just one lack of cohesion, one big enough, and a whole space colony could be destroyed.  If put into our real place with its interrelationships, we have impacts that ripple out throughput the whole Commons of Life.  We need an agreement, even if only a consensus reality made to appear real; that I can trust you and you me.  Otherwise…

Most all humankind has had transcendent spiritual beliefs. Your own love may be viewed as a transcendent or metaphysical glue that holds you and someone or thing together in a kind of invisible gravity of union. I feel that in a deep fundamental way, we are always acting in manners which we belive will make our love healthy, no matter how wrongly we may try to force it.

When humankind grows past its fear, threats and insecurities, when we know we are all inside spaceship earth together, and it does matter to each life what the other is doing, we will emerge into some kind of theocentric non state. I believe we will all act on behalf of our higher angels, and because of that union, share the mysteries and revelations of Creation, possibly with symbols and rituals that keep the reminder ever-present of the abiding transcendent Cause.

I can assume I am caused by the universe or whatever manifest it.  I can also assume, as through physics and cause and effect dynamics, that I am endemic to existence.  I can even assume that my consciousness is not detached from wherever consciousness exist in the scheme of things, without knowing how we exactly conceptualize creation.

Our modern minds seem to believe they cannot know a thing without fully describing it and deconstructing its rules of being.  One trouble with this scientific like objective premised assumption is that we know all the parameters of a thing, and of the context it exist in.  Spacetime seems to suggest to our senses that things are separate and self cohesive, but this view of the outer world is a self defined appearance reality in part dependent upon kinds of peer agreed to consensus realities.  Actual reality may be another matter.

But Metaphysics and Mumbo-jumbo?

No, Humankind, as spiritual societies, will not force religion onto anyone without their permission, our spiritual core will just fit into life seamlessly. If the universe is not in contradiction, and we are of the universe, I expect a state of essential non-contradiction in spiritual matters as the case of Life as well. This is then a premise of a latent, intrinsic Utopian (from our current viewpoint) spiritual anarchy impulse, that can well possess qualities and even beliefs of parts of some or all of the aforementioned belief systems, and even some not mentioned.  In one manner of defining this; what is true is to be honored.

Can humanity have truth as its guide while not completely conceptualizing Creation?

The difference will be that there will be no contradiction between each consciousness and collective humankind.   Differences will engage reason and definition of individual vision with a logical means of resolution of disagreement. Your spirit, in some ways untethered from dysfunction, will be able to soar higher than likely you or I have known, and not necessarily by designing a self in contrast to the worlds of others…

Unconditional Love has that guarantee. No one is stopping its anarchy, but ones sense of self limitations will limit ones awareness.  When external government is gone, we have a Darwinian feeding frenzy, where your neighbor does have the right to grab your stuff.  Get rid of Democracies government; the alleged will of The People, and we will likely have corporacratic and or theocratic replacement by an oligarchy.  Those interest are actively working against government by “The People”.

Real government ultimately cones from within.  Freedom will be real when external government is allowed to die.

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What a tree believes when reaching out?

Or does it know without question?

A rational universe

Truth defines the real self

Even if I cut this tree down

There is one governing equation

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CLOUDS FADE AWAY; a short life reflection while moon walking

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WHAT ABOUT NOW; a meditation on the present moment

NOW NOW…

Since I cannot get out of now, my past has relative meaning, my future is entirely speculative, no matter how much I plan, I am stuck in this middle. So what happens to you?

So we speculate upon life, and to death, upon a relative end to now. Yet it is not now that ends, it is a relative relationship of experience and abilities referred to as memory and self expression that is either left to quickly disintegrate with bodily processes, or else remain present in now in some other dimension(S) and or processes. The latter leading to much speculation regarded as guaranteed, one way or the other.

Now is so certain, we gamble on the future with certain abandon. Patterns of interaction become the crumbs we follow as we explore our lives. These become attempts to influence the future by intervening with intention in the vibrational fields of the now. All matter and energy exist in vibrational patterns, so this is not news.

TO CHOSE OR NOT TO CHOSE

But what we each chose to do or not, is news. Our influence on now sets up permanent alterations to the future. We are both individually powerful, yet collectively completely codependent, as a drop of water in the ocean. We are also equally dependent on the laws of the Universe, whether spelled out in religion or science or still unknown, it makes little difference.

That we all originated in an infinitesimally small mathematical point singularity, is considered, a ridiculous theory, or if accurate, means all things have a common identity and origin to the Original Now. Not too unlike a God manifesting all things. Whatever the absolute truth be, by its nature, it is only questionable by relative ignorance. Unfortunately, human abilities of comprehension and understanding guarantee relative ignorance, practically no matter what.

So what?

We are then, all in this now together, all changing the future in some ways forever. Ones presence in the now, then, never truly leaves and was implied from the beginning.

FATE OR FREE WILL

Chaos, entropy, uncertainty, randomness; they are the kindest gifts of all. They give us a chance to have meaning in our lives, to change the universe by our being a focused function of its ways unique to our time and place. If we presume we are not all in this together, we are lost, in some respects blinded. We will then emit that vibration into what we do have remaining (subconsciously and physically) of the all that we are made of. This will likely bring to us a certain chronic negative experience, being that it is vibrationally dissonant.

The negative, or sense of negation in the self, can be a great point of impulse for enlightenment towards healing if for some reson one is cast into the light of enlightenment-understanding. Or if instead our error is defended with walls put in place to guard it, it becomes magnified in some ways by “living” in whatever the error is. We are somewhat able to read the levels of dissonance or disconnection in one another. However, if we are entrenched in our own disconnect, those disconnected like us may seem “our kind of people”.

FACING CREATION HEAD ON

Now will let us explore our past to adjust vibrations as known in feelings and emotions. When done, this is a great aid in understanding present consciousness in the living moment of now. Not trying to explore and understand, or pretending the past never happened, is to throw away the book of knowing lessons we each were given.

Not understanding our errors and growing out of them, we are left to perpetuate them into the present, their vibrations moving out into both the physical world and the metaphysical. We can set up our own vibrational trap around ourselves, leaving us with a personal lens that sees the world of relationships inside the same error. This can leave me in some ways dead to the now, the present experience of life and being, in effect, withheld.

Here, right now, is about that quest to know in some clear way, the medium in which we are always intimately related to the truth of being. Known or not to our minds and emotional adjustments.

Have a good one. Your future is both up to you and completely tied to Creation. The apparent paradox is in the perspective.

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WHAT EXACTLY WAS CHRIST MESSAGE?

Gulp!

I just read a post with this title below

Religious Left Misrepresents Christ’s Message

It was short, unlike most of mine.

It told how several left evangelicals are aiding and abetting the poor and sick, which the individual declares is wrong, since they are that way BECAUSE OF SIN!

That is a new one to me. And I may not represent it perfectly!

I have heard that the religious right had turned Christ message on its head, but it is shocking to see it so nakedly claimed. Perhaps John Deans book; CONSERVATIVES WITHOUT CONSCIENCE, would help some break through the cult stranglehold. I would suggest the words and deeds of Jesus Christ, but those seem to have become an anti example.

Many old tribal cults and new age cults beliefs have this; problems are all your fault! What have you done to deserve them? Now you are subservient to the finger pointing at you expert. Who prescribes ideas to ostensibly heal your wicked ways.

Hint.

Since you are not perfect to your beliefs, especially since you, your family and friends will get sick, even die one day, you must forever tow the ideological lines fear based premise. If your child is born with leukemia, exactly whose fault was that? Or is born poor in Appalachia? Does God make the habit of punishing the unborn for where they will be born or to whom?

I am not saying my decisions cannot lead to both a kind of punishment and illness. I am saying it is insane to believe the Universes Infallible Being would hold us up to Its standard, or condemn us forever for making a mistake, or accepting a wrong idea. We are human, right? Or are some of us the one and only God?

JUST SAY NO TO GOOD WORKS?

I helped clean up in the vicinity of a tornadoes path way back when. Did all the sinners happen to be in that line? Was I not to help? I volunteered for domestic abuse response. Is that a sin? Is that why I have a headache?

It was a profound experience in my life; helping those left helpless, joining with other volunteers to help those without a reason why, unconditionally.

When we seemingly came out of nowhere, not to proselytize but just to do unto others as we would wish to ourselves, a wonderful Spirit was present. I could imagine that having a profound impact on them (sinners?), as we did what they were unable to do alone. If evangelicals are to think this is taking Christ message wrong, shame on them.

CULTS OF A DIFFERENT FEATHER

I will tell these evangelicals of the right this; how dare you stab helping, compassion and empathy, (qualities of Christ), in the back! I missed it when He helped the poor, made extra loaves and fishes, walked amidst the sick. I missed it when he callously wagged his fingers at them and said they deserved what they got, for being sinners. Someone must be rewriting something opposite for new reasons. Reasons that will be blind to blind followers.

Tribal cults, new age cults, and apparently some evangelical cults, believe they are entitled to judge as if they were God, or knew of Gods hand. One is then left as the cult members are. Never good enough (Oh I have a cough! Hide it.). Never pure enough (Oh. I had an accident, I am being punished!) maybe, but was the “sin” moral or of merit? (We have a drought, so lets sacrifice a virgin, to appease god.) Or was the message; watch were you are going? Or that car just came through the light and hit me out of the blue? Do all objects collied for moral reasons, religious virtue?

See how confused you can be kept when under mind control? You become unable to think for yourself in any rationally objective way. Well you got sick because of a sin and I am here to tell you not to sin and so be well. Will you accept Christ and be healed? Oh, one year old with a fatal illness?

Cults (yep, I was in one once) will also use the negative, as a positive, it is a test of your faith, or it came to you because you were strong enough to handle it. This is not so unlike the compassion one is extended when you are told, Christ needed your one year old in heaven. They are in a better place. (There is a point where ‘mysterious ways’ are nothing more than cold blooded rationalizations for having no insight left.)

But if they (victims) got there by the sinister force alleged by some evangelicals, that better place may well be because they are away from you, or is it them?

CULT GROUP THINK CONFORMITY OF IDEA

I can see why a cult wishes you both directing scorn and retribution towards your inner failures of belief; but that they would project them out into the world, for what seems like demented or politically callus reasons, proudly, and over their vast multimedia platforms, is quite a black magic art.